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This confession has meant nothing...
Created on 2004-01-01 08:57:10 (#1749575), last updated 2004-06-09
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Basic Info| Name: | THIS IS NOT AN EXIT |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 02-07 |
BioMy name is Kevin Obrien.
I am sixteen years of age.
I live in Raynham/Taunton on prospect hill.
You'll notice that my friends
and I all look and behave in a remarkably similar fashion,
but there are subtle differences between us.
There is an idea of a Kevin OBrien,
some kind of abstraction,
hut there is no real me,
only an entity,
something illusory,
and though I can hide my cold gaze
and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping you
and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable:
I simply am not there.
It is hard for me to make sense on any given level.
My self is fabricated, an aberration.
My personality is sketchy and unformed,
my heartlessness goes deep and is persistent.
My conscience, my pity, my hopes
disappeared a long time ago,
if they ever did exist.
There are no more barriers to cross.
All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane,
the vicious and the evil,
all the mayhem I have caused
and my utter indifference toward it,
I have now surpassed...
My pain is constant and sharp
and I do not hope for a better world for anyone.
I fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others.
I want no escape.
But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis.
I gain no deeper knowledge about myself,
no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling.
There has been no reason for me to tell you any of this.
This confession has meant nothing...
Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops.
AFI is Love
I am sixteen years of age.
I live in Raynham/Taunton on prospect hill.
You'll notice that my friends
and I all look and behave in a remarkably similar fashion,
but there are subtle differences between us.
There is an idea of a Kevin OBrien,
some kind of abstraction,
hut there is no real me,
only an entity,
something illusory,
and though I can hide my cold gaze
and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping you
and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably comparable:
I simply am not there.
It is hard for me to make sense on any given level.
My self is fabricated, an aberration.
My personality is sketchy and unformed,
my heartlessness goes deep and is persistent.
My conscience, my pity, my hopes
disappeared a long time ago,
if they ever did exist.
There are no more barriers to cross.
All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane,
the vicious and the evil,
all the mayhem I have caused
and my utter indifference toward it,
I have now surpassed...
My pain is constant and sharp
and I do not hope for a better world for anyone.
I fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others.
I want no escape.
But even after admitting this, there is no catharsis.
I gain no deeper knowledge about myself,
no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling.
There has been no reason for me to tell you any of this.
This confession has meant nothing...
Pull the trigger and the nightmare stops.
AFI is Love
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